This is a blog post I have started and re-started many times.
Each version carried a slightly different theme, and while each held a level of truth, none quite reflected the energy moving through me.

It has been difficult to find the words, as I have been navigating some deeply emotional and challenging times within my family. And sometimes, when we are moving through turbulent waters, it can be hard to see clearly. We may find ourselves drifting in directions we didn’t expect, unsure of where we are going; and yet, somehow, still being guided back to the heart of it all and the heart of self.

That is where I find myself now.

I have stepped back from my work for a time, turning my attention fully to my family. There has been a quiet surrender in this and a laying down of the need to resist what is already here. A softening into what is, rather than what I wish could be.

There was a time where my prayers felt like pleading, asking for this moment not to arrive. But now, the prayer has changed. Now, it is a prayer for healing, for strength, for light, and for gentle unfolding.

Because the truth is, we cannot always stop what is meant to be.

We may ask for ease, for swiftness, for a softer path and sometimes that is granted. But if something is part of a deeper soul journey, it will ask to be lived, felt, and moved through in its own time.

And in those moments, it can feel as though we have lost our way.

But what if we haven’t?

What if, even here, we are being guided into a deeper becoming? What if this, too, is part of the unfolding? The part where we meet a version of ourselves we have not yet known?

I know that in times like these, it can be incredibly hard to hold that perspective for it can feel overwhelming, heavy and all-consuming. Sometimes there is grief, anger and/or a deep need to release what is being held within.

If that is where you find yourself, please know it is okay.

It is okay to feel it; to express it and to let it move through you.

This does not mean you have lost your way.
It means you are human, moving through something that matters.

And perhaps this post is not perfectly formed, or as clear as I would usually like it to be but it is honest. It reflects where I am right now.

Thank you for being here, and for allowing me the space to honour this moment.

May you find softness in the moments that feel heavy and trust in the quiet unfolding of your own path.

With Love & Endless Blessings,
Deena 🤍